Sometimes I sit and cry at night. Asking God why is my mind so tight. The constant struggle to keep my mind focused on you. The battle between my flesh and my spirit, the greater war that I was warned about is real and true. Why do I crave those things which I can not have and what I can have isn't appealing to me? Is this the way life will always be. Day in and day out I'm fighting myself to not fall from these memories. My mind is twisted, I can't keep dealing with this, I don't want this negaitve energy. I'm doing things I don't normally do, I'm going against everything I stand for, everything I know to be true.
Then I realize everything he used to do, I'm doing. Once it started, there's no undoing. The urges that come I can't suffice. Was it all worth it, Am I willing to pay the price. His thoughts have become my thought, his actions turned to my actions, and now soul to soul we are tied. I'm conected to him, and he's connected to me. Sad part about it is, I'm not even his bride.
We kissed, we touched, we connected and now I'm no longer whole. What I did, what he did, HE TOUCHED MY SOUL! And now I'm out of control. Don't know which way to turn cause of pride and I'm left out in the cold. And what can break this bond, this tie, something that can't be stopped by condom or birth control.
Now a piece of me left walking when he walked away from me. And all he left me with are numerous counts of other spirits that he deposited in me. So no wonder why my life is not my own, my mind is blown. Now I know, Now I know, Now I know, why I can't move on. It's that soul tie, and his soul keeps pulling me right along. I will never be the same, but I'm willing to take a stand, admit my fault take my control. And learn from the mistake when HE TOUCHED MY SOUL!
An Original by Yours Truly
♥Ashley N. Duffy♥
***I do hope this poem reaches some little girl(or boy) to make you reconsider your thoughts of "giving up the goods". And if you already have it's never to late to stop. I do believe more people need to become aware that's it's more than laying down and getting up when up when you choose to have sex. ARE YOU WILLING TO PAY THE PRICE WHEN YOU GET BACK UP***
About Me
- HisBeauty4MyAshes
- Set aside to do God's work.I'm not perfect but I strive to do all God has called me to do. Had life's up and down but I refuse to let anything separate me from the LOVE of GOD! There is a Message in my Mess. I have a desire to see people prosper both physically and most importantly, spiritually and to be free from all their pain GOD LOVES YOU!
